Smiling Face is Everywhere ;)

"If I had to choose which color to describe my world perfectly, that would be gray. Neither black nor white, it's gray.

Man thought basically affected by potentials that imply of his life at a time. If those potentials are changed, so does the thought itself. People's opinion would not stay forever, meaning those might stay the same but others may changed into something different. The thing is, it always be affected by some situations which the man implied.

Because of those circumstances, the world for me is never been too easy to be determined as black or white (read: true or false).

About more than 4 years ago, my life was simply happy with all the things I had. I had dreams that I wished that I would never forget. I had private person who always blessing me with all his loves and so did I. I used to love him very much and felt comfort enough. I never ever tried to think the relation would be ended.

I am changed. I realize that I have changed myself a lot. What I had is come to as "not enough". I am wishing him could change too so the condition would back to balance. I pursue with love, I had listened very deep about every little thing he need. I know I am the only one who knows him close. I know I had so close and dreamed him as a man, a good man for his own life.

Honestly, I really forget about what was the main point, which made the relationship, finally broken up. But the things I remember are that I really wanted him to come to visit me in my last years living at the town where I lived for study purposes. He gave me a reason and I tried to deal with that as I could deal with any of my untrue dreams such having trip to Taman Safari, Dufan, Bandung, together with him, I thought it would be easy to deal with one other.

I won't to say what I've done is white and what he has done is black. And I don't want him to saw it vice verse, because I believe no one is wrong to make the relation broken up. Probably, it was happen because it has to be over.

Probably I am the first man of both of us who decided to have a new relation with other, but it doesn't mean I had totally forgotten about everything from the past. And for some private reasons there were some memories I guess would never erased.
I love my past. I am not regretting even an inch; while I also believe I have future that I dream to be more wonderful. :)

I am sorry, I don't remember if I had said to you a good bye quotes and apologetic words. From deep of my true heart, I apologize to you for every mistake and thank you so much for every happy love you had shares. Those are wonderful, really. And so I believe your future would be more than before.

smiling face is everywhere :))"


above was my old posting which i never showed up (em actually i did. but only somewhere in my privates), this writing had been replied by whom it may relevance hoho. funny to see it again, doesn't it?

cheers and don't ever forget that..
smiling face is everywhere ;)

Melly Indriasari !